To Be Continued ...

Well, well, well ... this is a familiar, yet unfamiliar site to behold. My blog. Emotional Rollercoaster.

It appears that I cannot escape the world of writing -- no many how many years separate one post from the next. Writing has always been my escape. Bearing my soul has always been my solace. But, for years, following the closure of my first blog and becoming a wife, I was forced into retirement and not supported in my endeavors to write about my life. I stopped doing what I loved because someone else didn't want to support me writing about the ups and downs of the life I was living at the time. I succumbed to the pressure because he was my husband and I wanted to respect his wishes. But, I should've advocated more fiercely for this piece of therapy that I so desperately needed.

For years, in my marriage, I struggled with depression. Then, the kids came and postpartum depression took over every aspect of my emotions and hormones. I didn't even know who I was anymore. I didn't have control over me. And, for a Scorpio woman, it was hard to accept. At some point, I turned to God and allowed Him to take control over situations I didn't have control of. Funny how that happens. Anyway, after He took control, the healing began. A therapist entered into my life to help me start healing and growing. Another baby came to give me hope on God's promises for my life. Strength showed up on my door step and pushed me to legally request the divorce that I had been living for more than two years. Later, a lawyer was placed in my life to give me a fresh start on my finances. God gave me a chance to start over and do things His way instead of mine.

This blog was really and truly the last piece of the puzzle. As a mommy of two, it is hard to sit down and pull out my journal and hand write my thoughts. But, I need to get my feelings out -- without the judgment that often comes when you talk to others. So, I decided to blow the dust off Emotional Rollercoaster and start back writing because, frankly, there is a lot to be said. I mean, I'm a divorced mom now. There is a lot that comes with that -- dating, finding love again, raising two kids, the struggle of co-parenting, hanging with your friends again. So much stuff.

So, yeah, we are continuing this ride. And I so hope you come along for the adventure.

-- fin