Today Was A Good Day

Indeed it was.

It started off kinda shitty b/c my pissy ass boss came knocking on my office door only 5 minutes after I got into that joint. Typically if she knocks on the door BEFORE I've docked my laptop I pretend I'm not there ... lol. Sad I know ... but the beotch doesn't take hints or STATEMENTS seriously. Anyway ... after she interrupted my daily prayer I was not in the best of spirits. But the day progressed well.

I was busy as usual. The Supreme Court ruled against medical marijuana today and we were bombarded with media calls ... journalists wanting a statement from the organization. Needless to say, we were busy trying to locate the Chief Medical Officer to provide comment we could use. That was cool! We have a new guy on our team ... and I SWEAR I think he's popping Prozac. It took me a minute to warm up to him ... but he's cool ... I just get a weird feeling about him.

After work, I retreated to my escape from the 'world' (i.e. my apartment) and got dressed to hit the gym. The battery of my iPod needed charging ... so I put it on the charger for a hot second ... then rolled to L.A. Fitness for my evening run. I get on the treadmill and start running to the sounds of Jay-Z and Lil Jon. All of a sudden ... the music cuts off ... the damn battery died! Ugh! So I finished my mile ... IN SILENCE and drove home.

My homegirl called me Sunday morning to tell me her stepfather passed away from colon cancer. I felt bad for her mom b/c they had only been married for a few years. And Bill was like a dad to all of Rashida's friends ... myself included. He was cool! After Rashida told me of Bill's death ... I started thinking about my own life ... and how I've been complaining about this and about that. But God has been so good to me ... He has blessed me tremendously ... and sometimes I FAIL to realize how good I have it. I mean ... I truly have a wonderful life.

Saturday we went bowling to celebrate my younger cousin's birthday ... y'all my grandma was bowling ... it was beautiful. And as I was sitting there watching her bowl ... I started thinking about ALL the things she would have never experienced if it wasn't for my aunt and myself. She's 60 something years old ... and had never bowled prior to Saturday. It was beautiful. We take the little things in life for granted sometimes. We stress about our current situations ... neglecting to take inventory of what has yet to come. The best is yet to come. Beautiful things are in store for those who have faith in His power and goodwill. When you experience hurt, pain, and disappointment ... a blessing comes out of that. And maybe WE are the blessing ... our presence on this earth ... God allowing us to live another day.

I've been hurt and I'm hurting ... but I know that after the hurt has passed ... happiness and joy follow. I saw it Saturday ... and I saw it today. I've accepted who I am ... and no one is more beautiful than me. I love who am I ... who I've become. And I thank all the people who've hurt me along my path ... they only strengthened me ... gave me more character ... made me appreciate the little things.

It's A Wrap

I've emailed the link to my new home to all of you who have requested it. If you have not received an email from me, leave your info in the comments section and I'll hook you up.

It's been real here ... but it's about to get SERIOUS at my new joint. Take care y'all!

Systa Soul

Saying Goodbye

Saying goodbye has never been easy for me. I'd rather hold on for dear life and bear the hurt as long as that person or object was still there. Well I used to feel this way anyway. This week I've said goodbye or had the words goodbye said to me in some type of format. Do I feel bad? Actually ... I don't. For I know that some 'goodbyes' were for the best. It hurts to know that an individual who was a part of my life for so long is gone ... FOR GOOD. But it feels good to know that I can physically and emotionally move on to better things ... healthier people. So I'm cool and at peace with saying 'goodbye' ... it wasn't meant to be b/c if it was then it would have been.

This week I said goobye to my blog ... Emotional Rollercoaster. And I think that hurts the most! So many of you read my pain and probably felt the exact same emotions I projected in my blog. And for some reason your comments and words of encouragement have helped me to either see my own faults or accept the faults of others and move on. I hope that those of you who frequent Emotional Rollercoaster (well with the exception of one) will visit my new home and show me just as much love there as you've shown here.

As you venture to my new spot, bear with me ... I have to rebuild myself and heal all over again from my recent separation. But just know that once I'm healed and I've been re-born ... I will be a different and more assertive Systa Soul.

In the words of my godson ... HOLLA!!