Vent Session

Not really ... got some things going on ... need to jot 'em down.

• The other night (Sunday night) I dreamed of my mother. My sister was in the dream too. It's not a dream to really analyze until you realize that my sister and my mother are deceased.

• People are responding to my resume and I love it! However these are for positions in the Atlanta area ... what is God trying to tell me about moving?

• My cousin graduated high school Saturday ... it was bittersweet ... almost like watching my baby sister take that walk across the stage ... she (my sister) died on her birthday at the age of 8 ... she never saw a day as beautiful as high school graduation. I cried Saturday thinking of her and what it would have been like to see her waltz across the stage ... basking in the happiness of her achievement.

• The more I come to this place of employment ... the more depressed I become.

• I can control no one's actions but my own. I can't persuade people to love me ... and why would I? I'm a lovable type of a woman and if someone doesn't want to love me ... it's their loss ... sorry for ya.

• I've created an iron wall around my heart ... I'm not as open as I was ... I don't know what the problem is ... but I'm tired of being hurt by the ones I love the most ... maybe I should cease loving.

• When I think about it ... being single isn't so bad ... at least I don't have to worry about being hurt by anyone other than me ... and why would I hurt myself.

• I wish I would have left the door closed.

• I hate the new Old Navy commercials ... I haven't been in Old Navy since they started running that crap.

• I HATE Pitbull's song 'Toma' ... it's stoopid.

• I haven't been sleeping well lately.

• People say I remind them of Nia Long, Lauren Hill, and/or Angela Bassett ... am I THAT cute?

• I'm going to Six Flags Tuesday ... ALONE.

• Sometimes I despise myself for giving love.

• My mom moved from Cartersville b/c she said she couldn't live in the same town as my father ... she loved him that much ... is that WHY I want to move so badly?