Rebound

It’s been a while since my emotions have inspired me to write
It’s not as if nothing worth discussing hasn’t come across … I just needed time to formulate my thoughts right.

However, the moment of truth has finally come
Time to share the transformation my life has undergone.

Unfortunately, I don’t know how I exactly feel about the choices I’ve made.
I do know that actions had to be taken for my soul to be saved

For the last two years, I’ve picked at the huge scab on my heart
Prohibiting the long process of healing to even start

Instead, I nurtured the deeply rooted pain by throwing myself in three separate relationships
But what I should have done was medicate the pain myself

I now find myself doing what I should have done a while ago
I’m finally single and ready to allow the healing process to take control

G-Code and I finally called it quits
And the Long Island Freeloader … well he already wasn’t shit

Mr. Never-Should-Have-Been was just that
But all these situations are done … there’s no going back

Lately I’ve found myself crying tears of indescribable emotional pain
My feelings for Mr. G-Code are to blame

How I loved this man so much
But loving him and nothing else was never enough

I finally had to let go of something that was never going to be
A relationship that was a part of my dreams and not my reality

My emotions for the other two relationships have dissolved into my memory
I just wish I hadn’t given them so much of my time and my energy

So now here I stand
Not quite ready for another man

Taking time to recuperate from the hurt I’ve endured
Trying to get every aspect of my life on the same accord

I pray that God lights my path to emotional stability

Finally, I'm taking a break and some time for me.